people say ‘I love you’ in a lot of different ways
'get some sleep'
'here have my fries'
'Im gonna draw you something'
"I wrote something for you."
And I’ll cradle your engorged member between my lips as the last slivers of cum coat my tongue.
I’m really sorry if I haven’t been on that often. I’ve taken on some pretty tough classes this semester, and I’ve moved to a new city and transferred to a new university. That being said, I’ll unfortunately be on even less. I’ve also hit a block on my writing. I have a ton of drafts pending, and I hope to finish them and send them out once in a while when inspired. I love you all and am grateful for those who have stuck around.
Hope to speak to y’all soon,
We ordered lube and rubbers online and because we spent more than $20 they sent us a free (too-big-to-use) dildo. So…
to big to use….?
You know, I’m glad you asked, because it allows me to print a correction.
I originally said it was too big to use, but yesterday I learned an important lesson about determination and believing in yourself.
I just want someone to sing to.
Kenzo 1983 - Iman by Hans Feurer
“Still, there are times I am bewildered by each mile I have traveled, each meal I have eaten, each person I have known, each room in which I have slept. As ordinary as it all appears, there are times when it is beyond my imagination.” (Jhumpa Lahiri, Interpreter of Maladies)
Thank you. The truth is without Submission Sunday there would have been no Coffee Club. I distinctly remember stumbling upon your blog and spending hours scrolling through your submission pages. It took a few tries before I found something that worked for me, before I finally submitted a picture I was excited over and I’m proud to say that some of my best photos have been submitted to and post by you.
Coffee Club was born of the idea that I could use my own blog to celebrate myself, and anyone else that wanted (maybe even needed) to be celebrated. I had amazing support from you and many of your dedicated followers from the very beginning. Over time it morphed and grew into a living diary of sorts. Once a week we’d all stop what we were doing to read each other – to read up on lives, days, relationships, illnesses, families – sometimes we’d grieve together and even more often we’d celebrate together. In my opinion, the club took a distinct turning point when I ran a ‘Give Thanks’ theme in November – reading all the stories about the way people had given back to friends, communities, families; the struggles many of them gave up; and the gratitude exhibited by all, as we took turns giving thanks.
It’s important to me that you all know how difficult of a decision it was for me to leave Coffee Club and my blog – not only to walk away from it but to actually deactivate it. I cried and cried and cried but in the parts of me that mattered I knew I couldn’t just ‘walk away’. It may have been selfish of me to take a years’ worth of submissions and proverbially blow them up but to be honest, I needed to be selfish. I needed to make a decision that promoted the desires inside; creating a healthy environment for myself, using my time wisely, and pursuing a relationship that means the world to me. To put it simple, I’d come to a cross roads. Pursue things I knew I needed, or maintain an increasingly unhealthy relationship to the anonymous affirmation of the internet.
To say I’ve received lot of support in this decision would be a gross understatement. My significant other, and many of the friends I’ve created here have been so incredibly supportive that in some ways it feels like I keep losing the phantom limb over and over. You all are part of my family. I am extremely proud of you for the things you’ve accomplished in the past year. I am extremely grateful to you for the way you’ve opened up your lives to strangers through Coffee Club, through Submissions Sunday, and through your own personal blogs; helping others and allowing others to help you. You’ve done amazingly brave things!
My desire to start a blog, and run a submission day was an ordinary idea. I had no clue the journey I was about to embark on.
Thanks to all of you for your words of affirmation, your kindnesses, and your support. I’m incredibly sad but I am doing well. I’m preparing for some road races, pursuing some higher education opportunities, and very happy with my mystery man. I’m still around and happy to communicate on the coffee club email address for any of you that want to keep in touch.
Ninja – thank you for paving the way for so many of us.
Give yourself a little grace….
Thank you very much for taking the time to explain your thoughts because I know people were worried and confused with your abrupt departure. I’ll be honest I was very surprised to see you go, but I’m confident we’ll still see fingerprints of the inspiration and encouragement you started with Coffee Club and Lioness all over Tumblr and Submission Sunday. And if you ever decide to share again you’ll be welcomes back with open arms, thank you so much for all you’ve done for the body positive community and for helping so many of us.
not going to lie, I teared up.